weirdest dream this year...hands down.

I had a dream last night that was just strange. First off I was on my way to quincy to see the newsboys and ran into some people from our old church in southern Ill. So I said hey whats up and we hung out for a while. Then all of a sudden Newsboys came out and I was excited but not super excited because I saw them the day before. But then our old friends were telling me how they were related to the old lead singer and I noticed that he was up on stage singing..so I started to freak and like ran up to the stage to get his picture....but they were done. so I tried to meet up with them after and get pictures, but unfortunately it was just his little brother that looked jst like him. but when he did come out he got in a fancy orange car with a bunch of girls and drove off...it made me sad. so I decided to go back to the auditorium to get my stuff and go but I ran into the Nazarene Church people who were there for a superchick concert but got there 2 hours too early So i talked with them and nonsense then i ran into Bri who was trning in a room change form and I had the worst roommate ever....So then all of a sdden I flashed to the concert building but I was outside. and this random girl busted open an outlet, pulled out all the wires and turned on a water hose, and connected the wires to the hose and put the hose through a slot in the window. Little did she know that inside. there was a young boy who had been horribly made fun of for a while getting ready to hop  in the shower after playing basketball. So he got in the same stall as the hose and was being electrocuted. Blood was gushing out of his face, I could just see the hurt in his eyes, and I couldnt do anything about it. I tried and Tried to run back outside and get the hose out, or call the ambulance, but I couldn't I just had to stand there and watch him be electrocuted into nothing. Then I went back to the gym/auditorium-building thing and talked to Greg about bands because the Nazarene church decided to join the band that opened for Superchick.

Then I woke up.

I am just sitting here just thinking. Wow...how messed up am i to imagine something so bad?

I am a Historian

I am a Historian

...well a history major. I study the past, I want to live in the past, but I don't dwell on the past. (or at least I try not to.) That's what makes this hard. So much happened, but we can't dwell on what happened and pretend that we weren't apart. We can't just go for it. Times have changed, we've changed. Yes the past influences the present and will affect the future, and we take what happened in the past and learn from it and try to repeat it or try to avoid it. But it happened in the past....that doesn't mean it will happen in the future.

If I sing out in the dead of night,

or praise you in the light of dawn,

Hear my song and lift me on your wings...

Glorious, Shining so Glorious,

though I stumble, though I fall you remain Glorious

Towards your light I come running, I come running,

Into your arms I come running, I come running.

God, I am still waiting for the answers.

But I praise you for the people you have sent me tonight! you are just so wonderful to me I can't even describe how awesome you are! you just make me smile!