LeahNobody said it would be easy. They just promised that it would be worth it
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Monday, April 18, 2011

12 days left in the year. It's been so long since I've posted

I have one paper and presentation on the Iranian Revolution

One Paper on Human trafficking and american foreign policy

One Presentation on an Arthurian knight poem

Three finals

One CAAP exam

One discussion for class on Tuesday

After Thursday I'll have four things to do in 1 weeks time :D


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Every time I see that little green dot I wanna click on it and scream at you! Can you just realize how much of a hypocrite you are?! "You mean too much to me to lose" All I have to say is if this is what meaning too much to you is like, it sucks. I've tried being there for you, I have put myself aside, but you just go on in your own little world just confident that I will come back, well guess what?!? I will NOT give you the satisfaction, you make me want to scream, I want my freaking book back and I will get it back without going back to you. I will not cave like your friends, You have an issue because they don't let you know their issues. But when I let you know what I really think, when I tell you that I don't think you are being mature, that this is not how a Christian should act, that you are doing harm. You don't listen. It was something that was on my heart that I felt you needed to know, but you didn't want to hear it. You tell other people that you have a problem with me, not me, I have to hear it from someone else. YOu are such a hypocrite! 

I hope you're happy. You ruined friendships with just about everyone else. They don't like the person you've become, we've tried to help you, but you just tell us it's our fault. EVERYONE has a problem with you. so I guess we are all wrong then? Oh I am sorry.

And I've also heard that one of the reasons why we haven't heard from you in so long is you've found someone else. You just can't face the fact that you are the problem, you put on a new front. You are such a fake a phony and I can't believe I listened to anything you ever said. You are so self absorbed.

I had hopes for you the day you called me telling me about your city experience. But I guess that was fake too

The day I changed my mind, I still thought you were being self-absorbed. you said that it was great to feel like you did something good, that you were doing good. You never said anything about actually helping and making a difference in someone elses life. It was not about them, it was about you.

So much for me thinking you were not being selfish.

You are nothing but a misguided person who sees nothing else but what is in YOUR best interest.

Even at the freaking Christian concert you were so selfish.

I feel sorry for you I really do. I tried.

You need a wake-up call.

The sad thing is, God's been sounding the alarm for the last year. And you just keep hitting the snooze button.

One day you will wake up. but you might have missed what your alarm was set for.

You will realize that you've done more harm than help, and sometimes claiming "good intentions" won't be good enough. Because were the intentions really good? I don't think so. Most of the intentions were all about what you could get. You were never willing to make sacrifices. You've harmed relationships because you weren't willing to make sacrifices. You've harmed eternal souls because you weren't willing to make a small temporary sacrifice for the God you say you are willing to die for.

You try to be the hero. and like all heroes, this is your demise.You say that you are lucky... that is for sure.

I want you to realize these things, I want you to experience the pain we've all felt because of you, but unfortunately for us, we don't have the luck that you've had. With our luck, you will be happy forever, you will get everything you've wanted, you will be successful. You will be everything you've ever wanted. It's just my luck.

I've tried being the best person for God I could be. I've tried serving him as best as I can, and I know I've failed miserably. I don't always want to hear it, but when others see me doing something wrong I want them to call me out on it. You never did that. I wish you had. Instead you just said I had a personality analysis issue. ughhhH! you make me so frustrated!

I wish you the worst. I wish you pain. I wish you trials, because then you will see what others around you have seen, only then will you realize how small you are and how big your God is. And how little you actually matter, but how much you do in reality.

Until then, I will only be forever your friend at a distance,

Leah Thomas


Sunday, July 18, 2010

I didn't want this, I was fine the way things were.
Why do feelings have to change?
It's so hard now. She's great she really is, I have enjoyed the conversations and the hang out times we've had, but I don't like you and her together. I want to be selfish. But I need to move on...
I didn't want this. This wasn't supposed to happen, I wasn't supposed to fall for you.


Tuesday, May 18, 2010

So every time I listen to "Better days" I just hear this certain voice just singing to me.. It makes me laugh a lot... and it makes me happy because I realize I am in a better position right now than I was, I am at the "better days" part. : )  Now I just have to wait for that one little thing....


Saturday, May 15, 2010

i think I screw everything up.... it sucks...

What is next in store?



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